following further research and a period of cognitive dissonance, i have decided to break down the corporation. although this will be rather difficult given the millions of vector employees in north america, i am determined to have my voice heard. i suppose, although i find the majority of teenagers and adolescents to be rather ignorant and deserving of these marketing scams, i am overcome with a sense of pity for the current staff and students to come. i was, although only for a few days, a victim of the lies and dishonesty of the cultish factions of the vector marketing corporation.

my arguments and petition must be coherent, logical, sensible, mature and dangerous. i will not allow myself to be a victim any longer - especially not a victim of idiocy.

my life is sounding rather epic and dramatic at the moment; however, i assure you it is not. i am simply attempting to preoccupy myself with extravagant thoughts of revolt.

an unmarked microsoft word document has been my sole company for the preponderance of this holiday monday. i have been attempting an essay on new religious movements and, despite my attraction to these matters, i have been ineffectual in successfully consummating the aforementioned composition. i postulate that it is primarily due to the fact that i have not been exercising my writing skills habitually. this concern has inspired me to continue with my online journal. it seems the absence of these rather insipid entries has resulted in my academic declension.

i apologize for the impending tribulations you are likely to endure when perusing through my entries. my writings are bland and created for the purpose of self-improvement.

i had been pollyannaish regarding my journey to california. with great anticipation, i had envisioned palm trees of gold and the bronzen sun caressing my skin. unfortunately, i was visited by a series of unfortunate events during my week-long stay. due to these star-crossed incidents, i have come to the conclusion that i am rather abhorred by the state of california as well as any god that may exist.

i had departed for the airport early sunday morning with the grievances of my mother as my sole source of amusement. she was exceedingly agitated due to the time of day as well as my lack of knowledge concerning my flight and, therefore, decided it would be in her best interest to accuse me of being selfish. i was, naturally, offended. this led to the time period of my life soon to be acknowledged as The Great Depression.

being a student of the dufferin peel catholic district school board, i was restricted in terms of my exercise freedom. i, along with my fellow schoolmates, were not permitted to embrace the ocean or the hotel pool. we were requested and demanded to steer clear of all potentially malignant liquidous areas. i found this rule to be rather unreasonable though, oddly enough, rational given the circumstances. it was simply preposterous as the teacher advisors had designated the first day to be enjoyed at a californian beach. it seemed the board delighted in the role of the devil - dangling the oceanic adventure before our very eyes. this day resulted in the commencement of my misfortunes. my beloved digital camera was slaughtered by the surrouding sand. the mechanics of my beautiful photographic machine became infested with the billowing particles and ceased operation. i was then placed in the tragic situation of being unable to record the following week of my life.

the following day, i came to a horrid realization. my aged notebook computer had become the victim of yet another ruthless crime. the audio began to fail as dazzling vocals mutated into simple noise pollution. the notebook battery meter proved to be deceiving as it displayed a full battery meter; however, failed to operate for the corresponding time period. i was absolutely devastated as the performance of my notebook played a vital role in my presentation and competition.

the message that i was loathed seemed to be disputable with the gods. my mother and father had advised against the transportation of my $200 leather boots across the border; however, i had rebelled and neglected their warnings. the posh business attire shoes were quickly damaged by an anonymous individual. naturally, i was rather frustrated and concerned with my cursed luck. it seemed my misfortunes had resulted in a downward spiral.

being the oriental individual that i am, i was inclined to order the internet in order to access the global network. my generosity only led to the eventual destruction of my spirit. my teacher advisor had decided to access his email inbox in my presence and this was, i later concluded, a large mistake. one of the most devastating letters had arrived in his inbox - the valedictorian candidate list. as one may have already assumed from the aforementioned words, i was not a member of this elite club of candidates. the possibility of being provided the title of valedictorian had been my primary source of motivation for my concluding year of secondary school. with the absence of such a possibility, i had been stripped of my drive.

the following misfortunate indicated the climax of my emotional roller coaster. i had experienced a twist of fate upon my arrival in california and, despite the disappointments i had endured, i had believed in the possibility of victory and glory. i suppose my false aspirations led to the careless action of misplacing my valuable mastercard.

to be continued in a state of euphoria...

i will begin at the crack of dawn on saturday, april 9th, 2005. guaranteed, this will be a rather lengthy entry as it will encompass every single detail of this rather cheerful day.

president and i ventured to sherway gardens in the early morning in hopes of returning home for noon. with prior afternoon plans, we were both attempting to manage our time well enough to include the shopping necessary for our upcoming anaheim trip. it was during this two hour adventure that i found my seemingly ideal prom dress. i will be returning to the mall tomorrow to receive a second opinion and make my final decision. it may be discounted, therefore i may be further encouraged to pick it up as soon as possible.

i returned home prior to noon for the cleaning process necessary for my grandparents' arrival. unfortunately, i have now been stripped of a proper mattress and the wooden board currently gracing my back during my slumber period is quite painful. i received phone call after phone call regarding my upcoming private paintball party in honour of my eighteenth year of life. i required a minimum of 20 guests in order to pay off the $500 deposit i had provided sgt. splatters earlier. twenty-four guests confirmed by 3pm. at the time, my primary concern was a means of transportation for the twenty-four guests as i had only made contact with three confirmed drivers.

due to my state of fatigue, the remainder of the entry will be continued in brief points summarizing the details of my day and all that has left me completely content. the times are approximated due to my failed memory.

05:24PM - leave the house to pick up konstantine - she is wearing a "no thank you" shirt
05:35PM - pick up lennon - he is wearing a rastafarian hat
05:50PM - stop at the mall for nintendo who is at work [ microplay ]
06:04PM - arrive at the pita nutsy to meet and greet the guests
06:15PM - hero arrives with a humourous greeting card and hardcorefraggle's note!
06:25PM - maritime and x arrive
06:40PM - fiend, religions, imagine, che, messenger arrive
06:47PM - an skinny man flirts with konstantine, but fails in his courting attempts
06:50PM - kermit arrives
07:10PM - president and cherry arrive
07:14PM - manager and unit arrive from work [ zeroedge ]
07:17PM - dice arrives with a beautiful card that is now gracing my bedroom wall
07:45PM - marijuana shocks me with a personalized swiss chocolate cake - my favourite
08:00PM - we leave the nutsy for sgt. splatters
08:34PM - i am lost due to kermit's poor orientation skills
08:42PM - sgt splatters adventure begins.
09:45PM - i am bruised from the shots and everything is going great despite the pain

the night progresses on without problems and everything is great.
my grandparents arrive in the evening and i return home to see them.
i now own the motorola v180 and a lot of ferrero rocher.

i love you all.
i am exhausted.
good night.

i have been subjected to a hiatus of thought. due to my degenerating mind, i have been unable to compose a coherent entry in the recent weeks. now, in the midst of the morning silence, i am in desperate need of a source of entertainment. this shall, temporarily, relieve me of my current state of tedium. the following will be rather desultory as my amnesic condition does not allow me to be as sequential as desired.

at the moment, i am seated in a rather uncomfortable ikea chair. with a single desk lamp to illuminate the bedroom, the dim atmosphere is rather somber. i have, due to the upcoming arrival of relatives, been relocated to a living space nearly a quarter the size of my original bedroom. the loss of a commodious living space has resulted in my slothfulness. in order to console me, the parentals have decided on a poor course of action in providing me, temporarily, with a television set. at the foot of my bed lays the murderous box with the dvd player, vcr and the satellite receiver. this has been my curse. primarily, my life has been free of the filth on television. i have had no desire to gaze at the screen for hours on end. now, however, it seems to be convenient to subject myself to it. fortunately, the history channel along with a&e seem to be the my channels of choice and therefore, my mind has not completely decayed.

according to the government, i have reached the age of majority - the status of having attendant rights and responsibilities. my mother has warned me of my inevitable abuse of the little power i have gained as an individual. she believes, now that parental consent is no longer necessary, that i will begin to circumvent the world of school completely. i fear that she may be correct. my father has reacted quite differently to the situation. he lives in fear that my age will encourage me to leave this household and therefore, he has showered me with electronic goods in an attempt to persuade me to continue living at home. i have received from my dear father a spare battery for my laptop, an external usb hard drive, a usb microhub, a firewire pcmcia, a cordless optical mouse and a rather utilitarian paper trimmer.

i have grown weary of this composition business. i apologize for the abrupt conclusion; however, the time of night begs for an attempt at sleep. my insomniac self, however, most likely return.

a journey into a world of slumber awaits. prior to this eventual adventure, i have chosen to compose an entry apropos the current events of my rather drab life. i apologize in advance for the absurdities which may lay in the following post as my state of lethargy has resulted in my recent inanity.

slumber did not befriend me friday evening as i attempted to grasp it with the hint of energy that prevailed in my body. i slipped into a comatose state following the luminous sunrise and was awoken soon after by the reverberations of a ghastly cellular ring. religions aspired to acquire a novelty strap for his recently purchased bass guitar. we ventured to walter's music in search of this product and we departed the mall shortly for the necessary dosage of pita. as expected and desired, the treasured employee was at his post and we engaged in a conversation with the humourous young man. religions informed me of his informal curfew due to a family dinner and we exited the nutsy.

a domiciliary dinner had been an event of absence during the preceding week. frivolous spending coupled with my gourmand lifestyle had been a result of this and i was overcome with a sense of relief and familial comfort while being seated at the table. the rich scent of oriental dining became familiar once more and i indulged in the culinary skills of the blessed parentals. soon after the rather silent refection, i journeyed to fiend's. a nimiety of heat encompassed his dilapidated basement as a result of the powered sauna, an abundance of candles and intoxicated vapour. the thermal atmosphere procured a sense of dormancy and i realized that my frail bones could take no more. i quickly ventured home to my personal heap of blankets in search of everlasting slumber.

employment consumed the better half of the final day of the break. it was a rather bland sunday with little amusement or antics. galileo attempted to contact me via cellular phone; however, i had neglected the vibrations emitted from the cursed telephone throughout the day. his efforts indicate that he may be in a rather dangerous situation. i suspect this due to his quotidian lack of initiative. towards the conclusion of my shift, i was cursed with a throbbing stomach pain and i attempted to relieve myself of the discomfort through the evasion of my employment duties. i merely engaged in the security and maintenance duties while performing simple tasks. despite my efforts, my stomach continued to suffer.

i returned home only to sprawl across the kitchen floor moaning and groaning concerning the physical agony. my mother recommended an antacid to rid of my torment. this antacid was to be added to a liquidous substance for consumption. as i dreaded the taste of antacid upon my tongue, i attempted to be clever by blending the medication with an appetizing bottle of fruit punch. unfortunately, it resulted in a rather horrendous beverage and the combination proved to be quite lachrymose. peering at the antacid bottle out of curiosity and regret, i came across a relatively interesting number - the expiry date. it seems the antacid had expired nearly six years ago and i was, naturally, disgusted. my mother merely chuckled and advised me to begin the hunt for an additional bottle of antacid. i must admit, i was neither impressed nor pleased with the incident.

out of courtesy, i attended dinner with the family unit shortly after. my mother discussed pecuniary details with me as she lectured me on my finance plans and budgeting. i simply assented to all that was said out of fatigue.

now, due to my continuous laguorousness, i conclude this entry. if i am cured of this illness by dawn, i shall be entering an alternate world of torment - a mental agonizing state caused by an informal prison system.

an irish-infested day arrived on the seventeenth of march - the annual st. patrick's day had invaded the nation. four-leafed clovers engulfed the city while the cheerful irish pranced about the streets intoxicated in celebration. i decided, due to my oriental background, to ignore the holiday and go about my life as usual. i awoke at the crack of dawn for the commencement of a rather eventful day.

following my morning business, the shower and the like, i proceeded to board the mississauga transit in hopes of journeying to islington station for a downtown adventure. due to the time, i was unfortunately forced to commute via transit rather than the splended toyota camry - my mother required the means of transportation for occupational purposes. despite my loathing for the transit system, i found the time aboard the bus and the subway to be rather soothing. the primary downfall of this journey was my company - an unexpected encounter with a former student of my secondary school. i had always found her to be extremely irritating as she is unnecessarily dramatic and her actions and words are, consequently, exaggerated. she accompanied president and i downtown to the university of toronto campus as it was a shared destination - we had planned to attend an open house and she had planned to attend class. when we arrived at the university, we were reluctant to join the rather lengthy tour guided by current students. instead, we vouched for a visit to the dormitory of a dear friend, player.

we explored the dormitory and conversed for quite some time prior to a mission to fill our stomachs. we found the street meat to be the food of choice as we ventured to the local hot dog vendor. we were rather dissatisfied with our purchases; however, we had fulfilled our goal of merely eliminating the hunger. during our hunt for food, we had also encountered karen o who had, coincidentally, ventured downtown to visit player. we pranced about her dormitory discussing life and current events and, due to our shared asian nature, we created photographic memories with the aid of three separate digital cameras. following this time, president and i decided it was best to return to mississauga

once we had arrived in my humble abode, we quickly departed for moxie's restaurant located in square one. we had made plans prior to with token, partyboy, cherry and buoy. the food was delicious as usual as i consumed a skillet of sauteed mushrooms along with chicken tenders. the males entertained themselves with the customers of the bar - the majority of which were irish and rather intoxicated. from here, the boys bid us farewell temporarily as they embarked on an alcoholic mission. i provided president a lift home as her mother demanded her presence at home and from there, cherry and i found ourselves at fiend's. undone soon arrived and we, not out of character, journeyed to the pita nutsy. we followed this adventure with a stop at tim horton's where i attempted to roll up the rim to win - naturally, this brought disappointment. we returned to fiend's basement soon after where a number of undone's peers decided to spend a portion of their evening. i fiddled about with the rented drumset and i lazed about the room conversing with the foreigners. into the night, cherry and i were the sole visitors left in the house and we lay in silence discussing the mere nothings of life. fiend and i decided, once and for all, that we were to be attending prom together. we confirmed the procedures involved and the level of intimacy to be considered the maximum. it was a light conversation and i soon departed for home.

the following morning, or afternoon rather, i awoke to the sun in my eyes half an hour past three in the afternoon. naturally, i was rather panicked as my work shift was scheduled to begin at four. i arrived at work on time and the full-timer commented on my age which he found to be a shock. prior to the conclusion of the first work hour, nintendo entertained me for a few minutes as he was on employment time as well. a number of random acquaintances arrived for brief hellos and goodbyes including a former customer at a former place of employment - randy river. he decided to hang about the kiosk for approximately two hours and enlighten me on his thespian life. following work, i had casually made plans with galileo for pita. not surprisingly, i was unable to reach the latino child and i decided to continue on with nintendo and konstantine. schwarma was excellent and the pita employee entertained me once more. he commented on his relationships with women and complimented my lips - many have commented on the african-american nature of my lips. from the nutsy, we proceeded to fiend's as usual.

naturally, many of the guests were engulfed in a marijuana world. i decided to escape the house once i received a telephone call from partyboy. he, along with token and buoy, were seated in a local tim horton's and i decided to join the boys for a dosage of caffeine. i suppose the coffee aided me - i arrived back at fiend's in a rather content and cheerful mood. i conversed with the sane and temporarily insane for some time before the gathering dispersed. token telephoned once more at the wee hour of one where he informed of his boredom. i invited, with the permission of fiend, the males to the house. unfortunately, they were rather intimidated and decided to seat themselves in a vehicle outside the house. i suppose i desired a change in atmosphere at this point in time and i lay in the backseat of buoy's automobile for two hours discussing life with the three males. i decided to head home around three before i passed out from fatigue.

now, i have arrived home only to find an apologetic and confused galileo online as well as the dear messenger - a fascinating child of fifteen. galileo has expressed his regrets for neglecting our evening plans and has attempted to justify his actions. messenger has become his alibi and confirmed his reasoning.

this break will soon come to an end and i will be rather upset by the academic torture that the prison will impose on my life. i have a mere two days to enjoy salvation and a taste of freedom. what shall i do today?

due to my incompetency, i was unable to arise at the desired time of noon as i had neglected to set the dear alarm. my mother waltzed in half an hour past three and demanded that i spring out of bed immediately. realizing it was now the afternoon and i had slept in quite late, i rushed about the house in search of my employment necessities as i was scheduled to work at four. i managed, in my twenty minutes of preparation time, to wash up, change into work gear, and eat a proper lunch. unfortunately, i was in a terrible mood as i was still immersed in a state of complete fatigue. my lethargic self attempted to speed to work in my toyota camry; however, the speeding resulted in a speed limit pace as i was mentally exhausted.

upon arriving at work, i was forced to converse with the morning full-timer. he is rather outspoken and loquacious - terminology courtesy of my fourth period instructor. unfortunately, i was not in the appropriate state of mind for his jibber-jabber and his words only began to annoy me to a great degree. he departed, leaving me with mp3 cds flooded with weezer, and i began a long evening of work. i completed the mandatory inventory checks and customer sales; however, this did not satisfy me mentally and i began to wither away in my head. sales were absolutely terrible as the newly relocated store had opened for business once again. the cart was again in competition with the inevitable conqueror.

the evening droned on and i continued to gaze at the shoppers with the desire to flee. at approximately 6:30pm, two young men happened to stop at the cart on the hunt for humourous apparel. one of these two individuals attends the secondary school that i have deemed my prison. he was rather charming and entertained me for no less than two hours of my evening. he, formerly assigned the pseodonym california, was timid and brought me temporary laughter as i attempted to pass the time. finally, due to the mall's inevitable and long-awaited closure, he departed with his peer and i was left on the search for religions.

naturally, as i have not consumed pita since friday, i was desiring the sweet taste of schwarma. religions and i, along with the company of konstantine, ventured to streetsville prior to closing time for a dose of the pita nutsy. the employee noted for his eccentric nature commented on my "fresh" look as i pranced in with my hair tied back and my bangs loosely parted. this look was not intended for fashionable purposes. prior to leaving my house, i was merely too lifeless to take time in attempting to straighten my bedhead hair. fiend was apparently having yet another get-together at his humble above; however, i decided against this journey and headed home in need of rest. now, i am simply consuming this slumber time with my online pleasure. a number of individuals have managed to perplex or amuse me thus far. galileo has claimed that he is occupying his time "watching the video of his birth in reverse" and he has continued to create illogical statements to be delivered to me all evening.

tomorrow, or thursday rather, i shall be wandering downtown with president for an open house hosted by the university of toronto. though i have explored the residences and the buildings, i would like to tour the area once more in order to come to a final conclusion regarding the campus. this will greatly influence my decisions when the time comes - given that i am provided acceptance to a number of universities. following the campus tour, i will be meeting with player as she resides in a university of toronto dormitory. then, i shall return to mississauga to meet with a few peers for dinner. partyboy, token, and cousin will be my dinner mates for the evening. thereafter, the plans have not yet been confirmed. i may be showing myself to fiend's once again or to token's depending on my mood at the time. as many may be aware of, i no longer find satisfaction in the dilapidated basement where many have chosen to congregate. perhaps i have become slightly pessimistic unnecessarily; however, i find pleasure in the adventurous time enjoyed with selective company.

now, my bed awaits me along with a film entitled eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. this features the lovable jim carrey along with my film nemesis kirsten dunst. perhaps one day i shall be featured in a film that all will come to love. how i wish i had travelled along the thespian path rather than this legalities-infested business.

good evening world.
thus spakes the nightspirit.